kendy’s scribbles

Whew its been awhile hehe… In a month I’ll be marrying the love of my life.. Yup, finally my ultimate gift has arrive and I’m gonna spend the rest of my life with him. We only had 5 months to prepare and God has been very good to us. Beautiful ones will come home on my day and even that is a miracle. With the busy skeds, distance and work, yup, we will be complete. Thank you Lord.

Now, the news of me getting married has spread like wildfire. And of course some people assumed I am pregnant. For the record, I am NOT pregnant. It is quite funny at first but it kinda irritating nah…No I am not expecting but hopefully very soon,in the right time. Hehehehe

Anyways, I had a grand time preparing this wedding. To the invitations, to the venue, to the designer and to the pictorials..it twas really fun. But most of all, the best part of it all is Marlon. He has been on my side from the start. I thank God for preparing us for each other. God has been so loving to bless me with the man of my dreams. Someone whose love for me is overflowing..someone who is kind and understanding..someone who loves God and loves his family…The list is long..a wonderful man indeed..

Babe, I love you…thank you for the inspiration..I am truly blessed to have you in my life..I am happy and excited to start a new life with you.

Babe..I do..

I am very well convinced that no person or thing can ever complete me. Only Him can ever fill the emptiness in me. I have learned that dependence in Him can make a big difference and that is living a more blissful and meaningful life. In the completeness I found in my self and Him, I have come to realize that this completeness is meant to be shared and witnessed. Now that you came, it all made sense, you are my witness to my completeness. The tough times and the tears that was shed had a purpose after all..to strengthen me,to fix me, to complete me, to prepare me..for you.

Someone sent me this message awhile ago:

Frustrating Realizations:

u find the perfect love, but in a wrong time.

u find the perfect one, but he’s not in love with you.

u find the perfect one, but u must be loyal to someone else.

u got the perfect looks, but no one takes u seriously.

u met the perfect personality, but ur bound to be just friends.

u got brains, but got a frail heart.

u find the courage, but its just too late.

ur ready to love, but u don’t know where to start.

Comment: I guess the universe has its ways of telling us that things don’t always happen the way we want it to. There are just things that are not meant to happen, not meant to be. We have to realize that we are a part of a grander plan and Someone is working behind the scenes and writing the perfect love story for each person in this imperfect world. And so, we take a deep breath, smile and take the dive once again…

in the silence of the night..in the darkest nights of your soul..it is when you realize that it is a blessing to feel and being jaded is a curse..because it is when you feel the emptiness and loneliness,there you find the true longings of your heart..you find what keeps u and breaks you..you find what u need and realize you’ve got everything, to finally have that bliss thats never ending..

i am talking nonsense..oh no..hahahaha

Who can say where the road goes,
Where the day flows?

And who can say if your love grows,
As your heart chose?

Who can say why your heart sighs,
As your love flies?

And who can say why your heart cries,
When your love dies?

Who can say when the roads meet,
That love might be,
In your heart.

And who can say when the day sleeps,
If the night keeps all your heart?
Night keeps all your heart…

Who can say if your love grows,
As your heart chose?

And who can say where the road goes,
Where the day flows?

Who knows?

Who knows?

Only time…

The rules we stepped aside

The fear that we defied

The thrill of the ride

The fire in our hearts that burned

The oceans that we crossed

The innocence we’ve lost

The hurting at the end

I go there again,

Cause it was beautiful.

So beautiful…

Hugs baby..

happy mother’s day to mama and mommy..wish we could spend this special day with u in batangas (mga arte)…hahaha im so happy that ur having the time of your lives in your grand vacation…but sayang wala mo kataste sa akong spaghetti hahaha

also to tita jing and all of my titas happy mother’s day…enjoy my spaghetti hahahaha

i need my equanimity back…

What is the state of your heart??? Have u ever asked yourself that question lately..or do we avoid asking ourselves that coz we are afraid of finding out..sometimes we go out into the world waiting for the pleasant surprises in store for us..and sometimes not so pleasant surprises too..but really life is so exciting and beautiful that it never stops to surprise us..have ur heart surprised you in a way that it takes ur breath away..and at the same time shatters you coz u know u will never be the same again..wheeeewww..we face the world in a way that we sometimes hide the state of our hearts coz we think its brave to shut down our emotions and deny ourselves of true freedom..once in awhile try to find out whats really deep in your heart..know what makes u happy..know what aches you..know what keeps you alive..and youll know what u need to get your groove back..believe me youll be back in the game in no time..sweetie this is for you!!! Love u!

Temptations of the Single Girl
(my comments and reactions hehehe, a book by Nina Atwood)

1.Temptation of denying your true desires
        -uhmmm i guess we girls should be clear on what we want..we are tempted to hang on relationships that is far from what we truly desire, a relationship based on love and commitment..hay ug ngano man gud lagi musettle bah!

2. Temptation of loving a wounded guy
        -hagoi girls learn to recognize these guys..hahaha u want signs??? according to the book he’s the one you fall for because he seems so disarming, so attractive, and so vulnerable on some level. Your loving heart is drawn to him more and more as he shares his life struggles. You want to believe that your love will heal him, draw him into a commitment that he’s been unable to give other women before you….Unya bayot..mutuo ka lugar hahaha wounded guys will give a million excuses to justify their fear of commitment..they will crumble in the sight of commitment hahahaha busa mga indai,ayaw nlang sugdi!!!! asuuus kinsai guilty,raise ur hand..

3. Temptation of dating without integrity
        -kini heavy rasad kaayo..dating without integrity??? actually mag muni muni sa ko ani..kai sobra rasad bah..mangita sa ko hard copy sa libro para ako masabtan jud..k! pero dli nalang cguro padayunun bah if inana walai integrity najud..tanga ka rasad if nahan kag inani oi hehehehe

4. Temptation of choosing high risk relationships
        -cguro naay uban gaka excite ug inani..high risk..like uhmm dli nlang ko expound sensitive ra kaayo ang topic..kana bitaw bawal na relasyon..nah ang theme song ninyu Bakit ngayon ka lang ug Bukas nlang kita mamahalin..hastang paeta..dli sad natu ma blame kung in lab sad..haaayyy but u know it goes to back to what u truly desire dba, a loving,PEACEFUL relationship dli nah tago tago..uhmmm i said too much hahahaha

5. Temptation of getting sexual too soon
        -uhmmmmmmmmmmm bah!..when is too soon??? is 2 months too soon? hahahaha joke! mas chada man gyud youll get to know each other in a deeper way than that dba..ayaw pud cguro weeks oi..its nice that u will be appreciated not because ur good in bed but because u have a good heart..naay nag protesta pwd ba daw both? hahahaha toink

6. Temptation of rushing into relationships
        -masinahon man so bahalag 3 days pa manguyab yes dretso para machange lang ang status sa friendster hahahahaha di cguro tah maginani bah..ngilngig!Great relationships come to those who wait and while you wait..you…pray! hahaha abi ninyu unsa noh hihi gichange nako kai mapangka joke!

7. Temptation of settling for less
        -we should love ourselves enough to recognize that all we deserve is the best. we should not get desperate just to hold on to people and relationships that wont really make us happy. aba aba serious nako haha i think thats why i dont get too affected on whatever semi-relations (take note semi and dli relationship haha whatever)i have now coz i know i deserve the best..i dont want to settle..i dont want to put all my hopes to people who will give me less than the best..

8. Temptation of taking the lead
        -sa tanan mga indai dont put matters into your hands..hahaha ngil-ad kaayo manguna mang!! women empowerment lugar no way..aw ambot it may work for others but u know allow the guy to take the lead..dli kai tungod respeto nlang yikes! gusto mo ana,napugos lang hahahaha di maayo nah tilimad-un mang..hahahaha

9. Temptation of aiming for the fairy tale
        -while we desire for true love dli pud cguro tah palabi mag imagine hehehe should we believe in happy ever after?? uhmm ok raman but know that it wont be easy to achieve and maintain that happy ever after..it takes work,effort and lot of sacrifices..i still believe in it though..i still do..

10. Temptations of sacrificing her authentic voice
        -never lose yourself..dont allow that to happen…listen to your self and never allow anyone to silence that voice in you..u may have fallen so many times but kita man cguro tanan diba..hehehe hay naku..its great to be single..lets enjoy every minute of it..temptations come but learn to say no..kung dli mapunggan uhmmm ayaw pirmanenteha sad oi hahahaha btaw girls lets learn to value ourselves and at the same time have fun..we wont be single forever..Bye!